Hello all. Things have
been quiet lately. Too quiet for my
liking. I’ve been dying, in a sense. Dying as in getting older, and slowing
down. Don’t worry (or clap), it’s not terminal. Just something we all go
through when approaching our late thirties, I assume. Still, it’s no excuse.
There’s never any excuse for not
writing (apart from maybe having no fingers). Anyway, I’ve been to a writing
class tonight, and because I’ve not attended that particular group for
absolutely ages, it seems to have had the desired effect. I’m now determined to
compile and self-publish a book of shorts I’ve been working on for the last two
years or so. It wouldn’t have occurred to me otherwise. They would have gone on
sitting there on my flash pens if not for tonight’s class. I’d say hard drive,
but baby, I ain’t got no hard drive.
My computer crashed. Is there any bigger hindrance to a so-called writer? I
lost heaps of work, because when it comes to backing things up, I’m about as
efficient at that as I am at doing the dishes, or changing the bed linen, or
paying the bills…which is not to say that I never do it, but that, if truth be
told, there’s sufficient room for improvement. So, a goal. I’ll give
myself a month to accomplish it. I’ve had no goals lately, nothing to aim for.
It’s been pure limbo. Then again, without a hard drive, I’ve only had the
pleasure of the television. The best thing I’ve watched lately was the Michael
Jackson night on Channel 5. I have to admit I was enthralled. I used to think
he wasn’t guilty but now I think he was. The plain fact is that none of us will
ever know. It’s a shame how he went from being the one and only Michael Jackson
who everyone loved into ‘Wacko Jacko’ with a load of question marks hanging
over him. Quite sad, really. What I’ll remember him for is wearing an umbrella
indoors, wearing his PJs to the courtroom, and dangling his baby out of a hotel
window. Not to mention his dance moves in those pop videos of his. The whole
sex charges fiasco is something his genuine fans wish never happened. It’s a
slur on the genius of his legacy. Apart from that I’ve
just had books to entertain me. I usually revolve between Herbert, Koontz and
King, because they’re reliable. I find it a risk reading a new writer because
some of them are bad. They start off promising but fade. I’m with Ian McEwan at
the moment. His style is of the utmost but his content is dodgy. He’s the kind
of writer who gets shortlisted for the Booker Prize, and crap like that. So
anyways, just thought I’d drop by. I’ll be back in a month with my new book of
shorts (it’s going to be called SHORTS), so you can hold me to my writing
goals. We do need goals, no matter how pathetically small. They get us through
the day.
Thursday, 30 March 2017
Tuesday, 21 March 2017
And It Was All A Dream
The strangest thing happened. I was lying in bed and
sleeping and oversleeping and then sleeping some more, half-dosing for most of
it so not really sleeping at all. I could concentrate on the radio for much of
it, and was aware of the author Dennis Lehane doing a charity event in my local
public library. He was reading the entirety of his novel Shutter Island in one
sitting, live on air. I followed much of the story during my snoozing, kind of
dreaming along with it, and replicating scenes from the movie in my mind’s eye.
I became immersed in Martin Scorcese’s cinematography. I really wanted to drag
myself up and roll on down to the library, this was a fantastic and unheard of
opportunity, but my medication had other plans. I simply could not summon up
the will to get out of the pit! I was too groggy from my pills. Finally, after
many hours, I managed to get up and shower. It was time to get into my special-occasion
yellow dress (which I’d never worn before), and make the trip to the library. I
was astonished by the set-up. As expected, it was a sell-out (I made a generous
donation). The town’s press was there, a flood of photographers and
journalists, with a tightly-knotted bunch of excited fans. There were
illuminated waxworks of Ben Kingsley and Leonardo Dicaprio, a simple but
spectacular touch, with the author sat up on a candlelit pedestal, calmly
reading from his famous paperback. I’d made it just in time for the ending, my
favourite part, and was ever-so-pleased that I’d made the trip. I never would
have forgiven myself if I’d missed this. When it was over I stayed until the
very end, until after all the autographs, handshakes, and signings. Then I
approached him and told him how much I had fallen for the main character, Teddy
Daniels. I said that to be so monumentally fucked-up was actually an endearing trait
in a person, that denial is a very important aspect of life. We deny our own
deaths every single day, I added. I even told Dennis that I myself had been
diagnosed a paranoid schizophrenic, something I very rarely disclose to anyone.
I spilled my nervous heart out to him, unexpectedly. I have no idea why. Maybe
because he looked so winsome and perfect while reading out his beautiful story.
I noticed a flicker in his eye, and a stutter in his breath.
Something told me that he had taken quite a shine to me. Maybe I imagined it.
Anyway, I left the venue with ideas of romance on my mind. I was sure something
had clicked between us. My hero had not let me down. I climbed out of my dress
and back into bed a very happy girl. Then I drifted off back into my slumber as
if nothing had happened. When I next woke, my dress was still hung up in my
closet with the label on as if I had never donned it. The whole thing felt like
a dream, but I wasn’t sure. I honestly didn’t know. It was so real. It was so vivid. I rang the library and they said they didn’t know what I was
talking about, they had had no author readings for two months. I searched
online and found the same result – no history at all of Dennis Lehane doing a
charity event whatsoever. Dumbfounding. So I messaged him on Twitter. He
emailed me his cell number straightaway, asking me to call him immediately. I
did so. And the next minute I was talking to my favourite writer in person – in
reality, in the flesh, in the actual living world.
You were the cute girl in the yellow dress, he said. I
blushed. Cute! But the thing is, no reading event had ever taken place…he’d
dreamed the same whole thing himself! He had dreamed he had a single session
reading of his book Shutter Island at a strange library in a strange town, and
I, somehow, had met him in his own dream, in our own connected dream. We, as people, had never met. Or had we?
© Zombie Publications 2017
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Dennis Lehane,
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