Hi there folks, things going good, harassment still all over me, attempted torment still all over me, but pulling through it by remaining in Christ. No signs of
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year off porn, don’t wanna tempt fate, but I haven’t even got a TV or PC, so
you can relax there. No desires lingering within, apart from a redundant mild fascination
with nipples. Nipples are calling to me for some reason. I think they are hugely
interesting features on the female anatomy. Who doesn’t?
I
find quite a few aspects on a woman ‘interesting’. But not so interesting that
I’ll be jeopardising my future.
I
heard a man in the fellowship say last night that he would sell his house, his
health and his freedom for that second drug, when he’s all in for flogging his
soul to the darkness. Wow. He coined it perfectly. When I’m hawking my soul, it’s
much the same. The grandmother goes in, the eternity goes in, the lot. Anything
for that next fix.
A
large fat stripe up the conk.
While
gawping at those nipples.
Another
guy said he was addicted to porn while eating Toblerones. He didn’t achieve orgasm,
he just ate Toblerones. No drugs, no partner, simply Toblers. He had the group
in hysterics, but I didn’t believe him. The Painted Dolls I would once voyeur
wouldn’t have that, no chance. They’d be pointing through the open portal monitor
and barking instructions. You may think ignore them, or turn it off. I tried
all that for years.
I’ve
concluded that porn and nicotine are the two hardest vices to give up. If anyone
has any opposing opinions then inbox me your versions asap, I’ll be most
intrigued to know what you reckon. Heroin, perhaps, or methadone, you’re
thinking? Cool delicious pints of beer? Tough isn’t it? They all sound like
great ideas. A fag and a shag for me.
Anyone
who wants to know my struggle, simply glimpse back over the last couple of
years of this blog. I’ve been up and down like a Yo-yo, trying for 30 days
mostly. Now I shoot for 90. So you can see that I’m still a novice in the
Recovery game. But I’ve learnt so much along the way, the education has been
invaluable. And of course, I went of the University of Life.
