dark am i, yet lovely, a lily among thorns, majestic as stars in procession

dark am i, yet lovely, a lily among thorns, majestic as stars in procession
WHY DESTROY YOURSELF? WHY DIE BEFORE YOUR TIME? THE KEEPERS OF THE HOUSE TREMBLE. DESIRE IS NO LONGER STIRRED. DO NOT CONFORM ANY LONGER TO THE PATTERN OF THIS WORLD.

Sunday, 11 January 2026

Fretting That My Creator Has Ditched Me!

 FRY DAY the 13th of DEE SEMBER

part the second

SUhrEEl METel drahMAH

Yesterday we finished talking about how Chinese search engines are a decent change from Google. I typically go with Baidu. There is much misunderstanding about their Eastern culture. I remember An Idiot Abroad being made an idiot abroad of because he was eating crisps instead of their local cuisine. A packet of Wotsits, instead of a cooked Tarantula, determined him the weird one. He sat on a bench being the odd one out looking gloomy. Personally, I used to have a lot of fear about the Orient, but aside from repressive policies and freedom of expression restrictions, not to mention mass hangings and shooting squads, they do a jolly catchy sing-a-longy very-dancy revamp of Michael Jackson’s hit song Beat it (1982). Pinky promise and hope to die, you’ll be impressed. My socks were blown off, it lifted my spirits so high. It’s been the worst few months of my life, so I needed cheering up.

I’ve lost so much this year, I’ll tell you all about it up the road somewhere, just as soon as I’ve skippered us crosswise over these meanderin’ seas with junctions in ‘em, ahoi ole captain, pass me the rum. Aye, my ways have been hairy n scary of late, snakes and no ladders everywhere, misleading turnpikes and backwards roundabouts, slippery slopes and foot-[hold]-less quagmires of quicksand. I’ve been surviving the

              *7nth Cir(c)le f hLL*

for years thus far, but that was with a lot of divine intervention. What I’ve had stolen, lost or flung away involve exclusive universities for smarty pants children who were psychically being privately educated by the more elevated types of my broadcasted thought waves; assemblies of Iraqi war-survivor children in school classes on a hollowed-out coach owned by Pepsi-Cola, of all people, called 

֍ the HOPE  βus 

and last but not least an

angel

which, because I took my eye off the ball, met the almost impossible fate (almost impossible for me to deal with) of being skinned alive by the Dark One. That angel was a Father’s Joy. I wrote about her on the blogspot in May last year. You can find it here

https://piebald77.blogspot.com/2025/05/nightmare-with-angel.html

My life, despite these rough waters, is now all about second chances and retribution. I’m trying to stay creative, as being crafty is a buffer against the harsh reality of the cosmos. Being creative keeps us occupied, in a current climate where the Eternal Snickering Footman (that sod who hurt my angel) makes much work of idle thumbs. My digits, for too long now, have been steeped in the procrastinating bondage of self-abuse. Masturbatory psychosis, and all of that shite. Time to change things up.

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