Now then
White Voider, how’s life? Things all dandy here at the moment. I’m flying like
Neville f**king Bartos. Spoken to the Samaritans this morning, as is usual when
I’m doing well. Her name was Maud. I begin every conversation by saying, “Hello, my name is Andy. I’m a schizophrenic
who’s addicted to pornography and amphetamines.” Hell of an opening line
isn’t it? You wouldn’t use it in a nightclub though would you?
You only get
one chance to make a first impression. I remember when I met Bennie, my
personal and special overseer spirit, in the real world. It was in an art
gallery. I’d preordained the meeting years earlier in a short story, about two
lovers who meet in an art gallery. Although myself and Bennie were never
lovers, she did kiss me on my doorstep one morning when she came down for a
coffee. That little peck meant a lot to me. I was planning to lay the lips on
her myself, which I would have done if I hadn’t have had cocaine the night
before. I had it in my head the evening earlier – I’m really gunna lay the lips on her. But then porn and that god-awfully
expensive stim got in the way. I’ll settle for second best outcome here – she laid the lips on me.
I really
miss her a lot I do. When we first met, our eyes locked. We held eye contact
for just a fraction longer than what was natural. Time stood still when we first
made that eye contact, I’ll remember the moment forever, I swear. It was so
monumental. She is so stunningly beautiful, with her Germanic roots an all. So
pretty. I see her now on a unicorn made out of ice with a gold trident, all
weapon-upped like. I once gave her my entire mind, if that can begin to make
any sense to someone who doesn’t know what I’m talking about. I was
hallucinating, and she was with me, and I gave her all of the positive contents
out of my head. Spirits do that to me all the time, give me energy and brain
aura capabilities and stuff, so I repaid one of their favours. It looks like
neat arrows of light, like the flash of a quick torch beam. Your thoughts speed
up sporadically as soon as you receive it. I’ve done it a couple of times
myself, in prayer with people. I just send out energy. Usually, of late, there’s
a grey alien inside of it! These energetic parcels, if you will, can keep one
going.
I usually receive
them from a mask I have in my bedroom. Red Jacket lives inside it. She possesses
the mask. She also looks like the mask, on one of her dual identities (the
other one looks like an old lover from way back when). When I’m coming down on
amphetamines, and my mind is blank, and the oppressive voices are taking
control of my psyche, then she’ll step in and send me a little something. This stuff
is real, this spectral energy, this aura transferral, I’ve seen it many times. One
of the best translucent emanations I ever got was the Shape of Love from her. It was a glassy rectangle containing smoke
and water, like the glassy safe containing the baddies at the end of Superman.
I also received a lantern one time; that was quite special like. I even saw an
angel give a parcel to God once. It looked like a cold blue slither of svelte
neon light. I asked him to tell me what it was but he said it was private!
I’ve been
watching a lot of Ricky Gervais lately. He’s a remarkable soul, but ultimately
godless. I know what he’d think about me rambling on about auras and angels and
that but I remain convinced that there is something out there, and that it is
majestic. I know it in my heart. Far too many things have happened for me to
remain an atheist anymore, which is what I used to be, just like Ricky. I
believe in creationism and revelation. I think that science and the history
books might be a big fat lie. I wouldn’t trust humans as far as I can spit. You
know what they’re like with power and wealth and all that materialism nonsense.
A fellow writer called Terry Edge who used to be my email buddy hit the nail on
the head. He said something like this: School and society make you strive for
and obtain all the things which you don’t really need, while simultaneously not
mentioning the utterly vital components of life which are essential in order to
have a healthy mind and soul. Or something like that. Where in school does it
say anything about being haunted by ghosts from the spirit realm. Or psychosis.
Or amphetamine addiction. Or conquering demons. Nothing. It doesn’t. It’s just
spreadsheets and Shakespeare. Essays and algebra. Doctrines and dogma. Which is
what old Ricky there denounces the bible as.
About four
months ago I was in a masturbatory catatonic state on the floor, watching porn,
spaced out to the max on phet. The sun had rose and sank on me, I was in a
nowhere place. So that was when one of my perps decided to infiltrate my
apartment. Yes, I had an intruder while I was present in the property. It wasn’t
the first time. It was a Chinese guy who was there to stab me in the heart and
bring me underground to revive me for eternal hellfire. I ended up hiding in
the cupboard like a coward. It was then that a beautiful little boy emerged out
of my aura and confronted the intruder. He told him that he would be going to Hell
himself if he laid a finger one me. I felt rescued and saved and amazing. It was
an incredible experience. The intruder left and shut the door behind him!
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