Sharing

I think it was Amy who mentioned at Breakfast Club yesterday, “What the hell is there to share different every day? I woke up, I scratched my arse, I ate some beans…” She was on about the fellowship of NA (Narcotics Anonymous). I heard a lame share in AA later that afternoon, no blood ‘n’ warts ‘n’ all if you know what I mean. Some people never or can’t shut up, they are sharing all the time, it’s quite rare to hear an effective share though. Some, by when their time is up, are still only 16 years old. I suppose going through your life story isn’t easy. I can’t knock it because I haven’t done it myself. They say you should be two years clean before you start doing main shares. Mine would primarily be about porn and psychosis, other than drugs, if I were ever to do one.

Public speaking is hard enough, but to publicly speak about something extremely personal to you as well…that’s doubly difficult. A decent main share I heard several weeks back was by a guy named Glyn. The best part was when he said his mum held a knife to his throat over his crippling addiction. I mean, I don’t get on the best with my mother, but holding a knife to your son’s throat! Lol! Can you imagine!? If my mum ever did that to me, I’d take the knife away from her, and then batter her. Seriously, I’d batter me mam if she did that!

How would you share the story of your life? Would you waffle on about the benefits of the program or really get into the nitty-gritty of exactly what circumstances have formed and shaped you into the person you are today? It’s the latter for me, I wouldn’t sugar-coat any of it with how good The Big Book has been. The Big Book is like the addict’s bible, it was written by a couple of drunks called Bill & Bob. It’s very well written, I’ll give them that, but, for me, there’s only one book needed in a time of crisis, and that’s the Holy Bible. Correct me if I’m wrong. I can’t find the time to read anything else at the minute. I’ve got a book personally signed to me from my favourite teacher which I need to read, but my nose is busy being buried inside the bible. Billy Connolly said never trust anyone who’s only ever read one book, but it’s true, it most honestly and assuredly is the only book a Christian ever needs. I’m reading just a snippet every other day and it’s making a change in my life. I have goals of upping my reading game, and setting at least an hour apart a day for just that. One time, I read Shutter Island in a single sitting. It took 7 hours. That was after watching the movie, so Leonardo DiCaprio, Mark Ruffalo (The Hulk), and Michelle Williams were firmly implanted in my mind. I find it a lot easier and better to read a book with the characters from that book’s movie already established in your mind.