It started
with a hallucination. I was a young naked boy hanging on a wooden frame on the
wall. It was obviously some kind of torture device. My mum was this
indescribable demoness who looked nothing like my real mum. Her features were
torn and ragged, like they’d been carved into her. She was taking turns between
performing fellatio on me and stabbing me softly in the heart with a knife. Apparently
she had done this all throughout my childhood (which now would explain how
tender my heart sometimes feels). Remember, Myocardial Infarction = Bum Ticker.
Your own mum, sucking you off and stabbing you in tandem, I know, how sick can
you get?
This was a particularly
ailing patch of the old psychosis. I mean, incest? It’s taboo. But with sado
elements, on a child? I could hardly imagine anything worse. It was some kind
of international ritual because I wasn’t of natural birth, I’d been born
supernaturally in a cupboard or something. So the world had decided to play a
game to punish me. I’d been placed with the new Princess of Belgium because she
was the most powerful sex object in the world.
I wasn’t
faring well while enduring this hallucination. That was until Bennie showed up,
one of my protective spirits. She arrived out of nowhere and started walking an
imaginary treadmill towards the hallucination. Her body language on the
treadmill was slightly comical, inspiring, and determined. She looked like a
warrior striding into battle. I was so pleased that someone out there didn’t
agree with this and was prepared to do something about it. Go get her Bennie! I screamed in my head. And she did. She battered
her.
But here’s
the $64,000 question, bearing in mind that Bennie used to be a show jumper: Would
I rather see Bennie on the treadmill or on horseback? She was so helpful on
that treadmill, the way she marched up it to face my fear and my foe, a true
combatant trooper scared of nothing, a raw battling conscript assigned to take
on my enemy, the Mother Goose of all childhood power, Belgium Princess, with
revered, hallowed underwear. Or would I prefer to see her on top of an untamed
animal, jumping over ditches behind flashing lights? It’s such a tough
question. She would look magnificent in action on horseback, Bennie would, of that
much I am certain. Just give me a moment to decide…
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