Ultra Awakenings

I have been formally awakened, fully into my Ultra identity. This was done by hearing a long complicated and confusing sequential string of words as I was waking up this morning, from a tiny microphone embedded in my skull. I don’t know if I was programmed in my childhood or in my past life, if I had one, but I am wholeheartedly confident that I am nothing like the person my sweet n lovin’ mother raised anymore. I wish she hadn’t of exposed me to Disney and Hollywood and Pokemon. And butterflies and unicorns and teddy bears. I wished I had had a strong father who could have toughened me up into a man’s man, instead of a mummy’s boy. That’s what I needed in this kind of program.

It’s strange, because I believe that after all of my psychological abuse at the hands of my faraway untraceable handlers, some kind of angelico has wandered her way into my mind, my psyche, and my life. Sorry, I mean angel, but I call them angelicos. It’s a little joke between the pair of us. (I also call a glass of booze a beveragino! Or a can of pop a tin of drink! Like the kebab shop menu does so. Aha – It doesn’t matter, none of this fluffin’ matters.)

Yeah, anyway, an angel, one of the Lord’s finest. I’m saying this, yet I haven’t met her personally. I just sense the presence of a little girl, kleine madchen I believe the German term is for them, although don’t you dare hold me on that. I like German things. They make good stuff. I’d like to collect German electronics, if I had the time. CB radios, walkie-talkies, pagers, stuff like that, that’d be great fun and nice to do. Kill some time and all that. I could talk about the details and functions of my collection with my precious darling angelico. In my mind, like, you know, talk to her in my mind. Like I always do.

Where is she? I wonder. Where could she be residing? Does she shower in my brain fluid? I think she’s located there somewhere. Or in the chemical-electro firings from synapse to synapse. I heard the brain has a subtle glow-like aura, like a lightbulb. Maybe she needs that brightness/contrast to navigate her way around my moral and ethical map. I’m sure that’s important to her. Unfortunately, that’s what is under threat here. Perhaps she folds my matter up like a suit around her, as I put an old comfortable jacket on. Who knows how angels possess their hosts?

At first I thought she was a darko entity bringing a jamboree of wrongdoing with her, a festival of lowly sin, but I started feeling overwhelmingly peaceful and joyous as soon as she arrived. She wouldn’t fake that, surely, I thought, it has to be from the Lord on high. I know the other guy is pain and suffering and death if you’re lucky. Believe you me, being in this Ultra program all of my life, I’ve kinda heard one or two things about him.

I’ve been around the mill thinking double-time about all things to do with angels. Wow what a head-spinner! What I won’t do however is read a self-help booklet about them, written by someone who was well-reviewed on Good Reads. What does some other dude know that I don’t? There’s hardly any mention of them in the bible. Apparently we all have one who protects our path are all times. I’m not sure my belief extends that far. And, also apparently, despite their ability to live inside another, they don’t actually have any super powers, like other mythical beings, they are just simply, well, human. That’s what makes them angelico. The sinless nature of themselves being human. But incase you didn’t know, basic human beings are pure power, even up there with the Gods. A human being can dismantle a God, fact, if the God is having a bad day, because creating begets creation and Gods make their children just as powerful as themselves.

Because let’s face it, take a look around at the world…what’s human about war? Are we really on the verge of World War III? Somebody pinch me and holla it ain’t so. Exciting, isn’t it? I’ve never been so ruddy bloody giddy about anything in my life. I hope it spreads to militia streets with me clubbing the invaders up with my fellow neighbours. There will be bombs, won’ there? I’ve been told there might not be. Apparently, again, it might be neuro weapons. Brain tech. Do you believe in all that kind of caper. That a satellite can shoot you with a beam and commit the perfect crime?

I believe in being awakened towards a fighting fit soldier. That’s what my message was about this morning. But do you know what? I believe my awakening is a direct reaction to the arrival of my prized and treasured angelico, which has possibly traversed from the heavenly realms to come and try, with an emphasis on try, to save me from the usual end of ultra messengers…missions which end in bloodshed.

 Despite my struggles, I hate my handlers, I am proud to be Ultra. But I do not want to die for Ultra while holding up a kiddies pick n mix stall on a country fair weekend, or shooting up a field trip of little nippers as they feed ducklings in the park, screaming “Allah is the greatest!” at the top of my voice before suicide by cop. Nooo, no way. I want my life, my stand, my fall, to mean something. Something important, striving to reach where someone else could never reach, or aiming to get to somewhere where someone else great before me once attained. One or the other, I don’t know. I want to inspire, and be inspired. I want to provoke, and be provoked. And now I’m just waffling corny cheese for a living. You know what they always said though, Aim big. Every teacher and benefactor has a similar sentiment.

Ultra has kept me festering in the gutter, instead of dancing on the rooftops, blowing kisses at the stars. Whenever I ascended anywhere of note a sidewind jarred me back down to the kerbside. I thought I was merely in the midst of a spree of bad luck; unbeknown to me, my handlers were pulling taut hapless puppeteering strings. If I can perch on the moon just once, while looking over somebody’s shoulder…

A n y w a y… join us again soon for more Ultra Awakenings 🔫

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Skeletons in the Cupboard

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~ painted dolls regularly get accused of wearing white fox branding attire

...hi there it's ATD hows things mad dog I'm having a ball here talking about fittie women who look like they shud bee playing Cinderella at the Empire or in some drag show hey there don't you think the gay draggy men are just as fit with their glam as the women are? seriously the ladies are lagging behind the blokes i'd give half of these shapely dudes a good old boning if i was arranged that way. some people are some people aren't I guess...

💄(Emoji of lipstick) also can be used to objectify a canine's penis

What, you never seen a dog's lipstick? I remember a dirty blue version of George Orwell's Animal Farm. No, I never seen it or owned it or showed it minors or anything like that, before you ask. the movie, that is, not the dog's lipstick. I think you'd get locked up if you started flaunting your pet that way, although how do you think I fisted someone? Blacky, that bar stool I think it was, showed me his dogs lipstick, and explained what it was and why it looked like the way it did (because it was excited) I don't know if Blacky excited it or not or what he excited it with if he excited it with something or whether on the other hand the dog was naturally excited by another dog although Blacky only had the one dog. We used to think his sister was acting like she was on the movie 

{∞} what a sicko movie

While the adult approximation may have been tasteless, made by adults for adults, it was in no way created to be consumed by underage school children who often either found it to be a large repertoire of humour or a deeply traumatising event. Either way, such shenanigans were hardly never before seen.

Carl from Colchester says, "I was visibly disturbed by the imagery of these beastly goings on for years, and still am, in my middle age, to this very day. I just solely remember a blonde woman with her hair tied back in suspenders and sports bra entertaining a big black lab on the sofa in a room full of draped red satin in front of a tripod-mounted camera She lowered my expectation of ladies for the next three decades. She looked very appropriate in my eyes for the deeds I had in mind for her but so very very inexplicably decadent in her business with the barker. I thought it was stuffed.

If they will sleep with other people's pets, then surely they have to at least consider giving me some satisfaction. That's what I think of said woe-man.

isn't that enuff about sex and pets!

I'm just saying, it was well troubling blud. I'll never be able to unsee it. And you wanna know the most frightening thing about the whole fiasco, mandem...is that I never actually saw it! I don't remember viewing the material!

You what???

I never actually saw it. The images jumped into my mind from somewhere as a child. Loads of people are swearing the same by this, they are saying that the movie did not even exist, that images were exported into their brains by a special weather magnet. Think about it. Why would a woman sleep with a mutt, for however much amount of money, even if she was desperate for that money?

Makes sense. She wouldn't. Not even a painted doll would do that to gain total control over her submissive. But a weather magnet? You mean like Haarp?

What's Haarp?

Forget about it. The government showed you beast action. So what?

So I want compensating for trauma. I can still see it now. In my mind.

Tell your doctor.

What will he do?

Recommend a sequel. Animal Farm 2. The Pirate Bay.

I'm there. Although I won't be needing the Pirate Bay. I'll probably see it in a dream.

A wide awake conscious one. Even with your eyes open.

It was funny as a kid. That shish won't be one bit funny anymore, at my age. I'll probably hurl.

I'll bet she was hurling. All over her r e d satin...🎠

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Once A Week

A Detective finds himself in the woods. He doesn’t have to be a detective, he can be anyone, but these days, in crime thrillers, they are always detectives, aren’t they?

A detective finds himself missing in the woods. That’s even better, isn’t it? How can he find himself missing? I know the answer to that one, because quite often I’ve regained total cognitive consciousness while realizing I am lost somewhere. It’s as if someone had earlier unplugged me, spun me around, and dropped me in a maze on the edges of suburbia.

I wouldn’t go so far to say as that it’s always happening, far from it, but I’m no stranger to the phenomenon. I did also, incidentally, think of myself as a pretend wannabe detective at the time, doing the Lord’s work.

I’ve now got an image of a man stood lurking around in the woods. It’s half me and half not me. I like being a man walking around the woods. I like everything about it, as long as it’s not dark and scary. I read a book once where the detective lived in a shack in the woods, all he did is make phone calls. His ringtone was going constantly. I swear, the extent of his capacity was making phone calls in the woods. Far from being boring, it has actually inspired me. Sometimes, the simple images, the most basic notions, are the best.

I remember he was speaking to a lot of people who didn’t really matter to him. Casual acquaintances, mostly. It was all to do with work. The thing was always out of his pocket and jammed against his ear. One odd night he broke into another shack he came across in the woods and searched it thoroughly for special evidence of some sort with his phone pressed against his ear the whole time. I think he was conferring with someone high up in the police department. He left without making it look obvious there was no sign of forced entry and hopefully there was no harm done.

On one extra special occasion he was hunkered over a silver rolling stream on a rickety rope bridge with his mac blowing around his knees in the gust, smoking. He was taking his time with the cigarette, it seemed to slowly burn down forever, he hardly took a drag, just the odd toke now and again, it was his first smoke in six months but he felt no guilt or regret whatsoever, he was doing nothing more than enjoying it a lot.

One of his shoes was balanced on his toes, he was wriggling it around off from his ankle. I don’t know why he was doing that. He seemed distant-minded.

I learned that he was talking to somebody very unusual and important. I think it was his niece. It just goes to show. You do a similar thing all off the time, and it means nothing. And then something comes along, dressed up like everything else, and it means all. Funny, isn’t it, how we react to stuff like that? Someone once said that certain things only come along in life once or twice.

He gave her one final penultimate instruction that she must always persistently live up to right until the end of her days. It was this unflinching demand:

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That she text him

but just once a week, 

to let him know 

she was okay.💗

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No visits in the 4x4 with any amount of screaming nippers children, no bus rides to the beach together, no going out for dinners in tuxedos, no pen pal set ups…just a plain and simple text message, once a week, to keep him going.

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Ultramarine aka G h o s t w r i t e r

uLTramarIne

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-OPEN-reset-BURY/CREMATE/PRESERVE

*G h o s t w r  i t e r*

man.lies.on.shrine.writing.to.dead.wife.all.we.know.so.far

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for jacket design, bus stop posters etc.;-)

he.communicates.with.deceased.partner.via.a.scribbling.pad.or.is.it.a.dictophone.dont.worry.about.a.thing.darling.i.am.here.no.you.are.not.this.is.just.me.or.are.you.really.i.am.off.my.trolley.you.are.wearing.your.best.socks

insert new dead character: speakandread/can.i.come.into.this.please.

insert 2^nd new dead character: typeandhear/have.you.lots.to.offer

no.response.several.weeks Received [hereafter] Attached/w: JPEGs/RGBs/TIFFs all of shrine

IMPORTANT.TO.AUTHOR: colours, as in what, colours of the rainbow, colourful wardrobe what colours exactly (answer_question) PENS.PENCILS.FELTS etc (rephrase_for_additional_response) where do colours go  CANVASS?PAPER?WALL?incorrect non toxic colours go on shrine

[DID NOT ETHNIC COMPILATION DO THIS SOME YEARS AGO? CAN WE RENAME THIS THING 

U L T R A M A R I N E. YOU KNOW, THE COLOUR OF A PAINTED SKY?]

THE SON OF THE BALLIFF IS ENTERING HIS SMALL HOLLOW means that Logan and Grayson are in each other’s arms tonight. These are two extra deceased that she is down there with. Is THAT a message from the dead.wife?Name.of.either.wife.or.spam.package.you.have.ink.on.your.hands. your.repeating.the.obvious.again.darling.your.boring.go.and.listen.to.white.noise.down.by.the.rocks.the.coastal.rocks.knock.up.some. brekkie.in.the.cabin

what.happened.to.my.painting.of.you.when.you.moved.

where.is.my.watch.i.can’t.see.the.time

when.can.i.come.back.i.feel.lost

who.keeps.giving.me.that.weird.sensation.tell.them.to.pack.it.in

m a k e.yourself.comfortable.have.you.eaten

why.does.not.sammy.stop.scratching

Ultrmarine, burnt sienna, dusty rose…can we think about the shrine for once in a lifetime peoples is it waterproof for example? and can we put plasma lamps inside it make it look like a music video i want full-on mega production value A.I render please now

Man sits on wife’s shrine and writes to her. Is that it? They have a deep conversation so what. What next? I was particularly interested in the deeply etched markings on the shrine, and of a rut in the earth which scars the cemetery like a fault line, leading up to the shrine. How do they connect and react with each other? That’s what I want from this potential story. Is she immaculately preserved? Can he get her released with some power tools and a dab of elbow grease? Or will it take three days, like Lazarus? Maybe they could run/swim through some nearby streams together. People…does anyone get buried in their evening gowns anymore?

Ed Drew Narrowly Avoids The F**k It Button (FiB)

Seriously, thank God he avoids this

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Colour of Screen: Salmon (Change from White Void)

Time and Weather Status: 13.15pm Wednesday

11˚ (neither hot nor cold to the bystander)

Cloudy with a fair chance of salt n pepper wingfat

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Ed Drew lies on the floor, grass sticking to his elbows.

Ed Drew thinks long and deep about being a failure.

Cars drive by the railings, their metallic covers dazzling with reflected sun rays.

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Ed Drew’s perception of the park changed. Instead of being a sunny play area, full of warmth and fun, with picnickers sat around truffles and creamy cheeses laid out on towels, and dog owners flinging frisbees for their pets to catch in keen jaws, and hyperactive children buzzing as they jumped all over climbing frames, it became a kind of seedy rendezvous juncture for dope fiends and sex offenders. Before he knew it, darkness was settling over proceedings. Well, not quite darkness, but the shadowy gloom that preceded darkness. A chill accompanied it. Not a natural chill, that belonged upon the surface of the Earth, next to a lake for example, but a mildly howling one, that belongs under the draft of a corrugated door in some forgotten decrepit chamber.

As we know Ed has been madly in unrequited love with cocaine, which has ruined his finances and placed a hole in his nose beside other things. Now he thinks about pushing the boat out and going one further by introducing some amphetamine into the scene of play, which is cheap and nasty and readily available. This make-do drug will keep Ed’s solo partygoing adventures in the game for another 24 hours, although the effects upon the body are far more serious than snow, in his opinion.

Speed will make him melt away, and dissolve into the atmosphere in a sweaty blur of itchy mist, serving no good thing whatsoever. At the moment he has a chance of recovery – the prospect of a chippy meal garners in him a glimmer of positive mental activity. Just the nourishing idea of dragging himself to Cod Almighty (open till 11.30pm) for a large fish and mushy peas with ketchup draws a smile on his face. For days now it had been just him and the drug, in a darkened room, and now there was a real possibility that that filthy run could be extended with a ten or twenty bag of dirty whizz, plonking him right back there with no excuse for anything productive like tidying up or bathing or anything. If only he could zone out with a movie or something, or chill to some music, with a bottle of red, with his feet up, and a cheese cracker.

There was nothing on the agenda tomorrow, but an able mindset and fresh attitude could unwrap some purpose from somewhere if he didn’t kop out with the billy. Nobody knew what positivity awaited around every next corner. As long as you kept your chin up with an air of expectancy, that was the main thing. If one were in bed at war with the world, not coping very well and edging towards depression, then it was almost conceivable without reply that another bad day was due your way.

Ed Drew On Snow

Ed Drew has wasted the last of his money on narcotics. He got paid he spent up and that’s it. He is currently out of his home and sleeping in the park, just beyond the shadow of the maples and spruce. The odd dog walker disturbs him, asks him if he is alright. No, he replies honestly. They take no further interest. If he were stripped to his shorts they’d maybe understand him, sunbathing as if on a beach, but the dude is fully dressed, catching tan lines on his wrists.

He’s surprised he’s survived snorting that amount of Class A. It’s practically still falling out of his conk in brittle crumbs. There go his expenses for the next month. How he’ll survive now he does not know. A visit to the foodbank just won’t cut it. If only the substance wasn’t so rotten expensive. He could max out big time and attempt suicide with it. He wished he had a criminal scam to fund some more incoming flux. Another white water rapid of powdery surf would do just the trick.

And who gave one about croaking it?

Ed doesn’t know what is harder, living without money to buy a meal or living without just one more line. When he intakes a large one, his heart lurches, his bio rhythm pauses to rectify momentum, all the cliffs of the Earth retract to let the seas roll backward, the wind halts like solidified ice crystals, it feels like all this and more, until he realises its just him struggling with his own breath, tingling and rattling and quivering and shivering at home out of his head. It doesn’t last anywhere like long enough, he thinks.

And now it’s done, the pleasure is over, if only it could last longer, if only he had more brains to blow out and a wallet deep enough to keep them well blown.

Or, if only, he wasn’t addicted at all, and he could focus on being a decent citizen. A normal guy. Wouldn’t that be nice? Sitting at home with the television and family, instead of having no television and family to sit in barely no home with. Heating on, washer going, frosted glasses of drinks with refreshments, bit of company, where would be the harm? Except he’d trade it all for a bag of white, kids included. He’d walked over youngsters before to get his fix…begged for them back…then trodden over them again.

This time it was desperate. In his head, around his warped thoughts, he could get a grasp at it, but in reality, with no credit on his electric meter, it was a different ball park. Too early to go home and get in bed, too late to turn back and be a good man. Ed was caught in the middle but at least he was sober and at least he wasn’t smoking himself to death.

In fact, he was thinking about going to the internet café to write in his online diary. There he told the world of the chaos surrounding him, of the flames curdling within his undealt-with system, of his dreams and desires, his successes and his failures, his worries and his fears, anything he was able to not shy away from.

He would have to go unwashed, unshaven, and hungry. Usually, when he was sat there typing, he was nothing like that. In fact, last time he’d shared his life with the world, he’d been wearing his yellow Helly Hansen skiing jacket. Thinking on, he would now have to try and sell it on Ebay. Only thing was, he didn’t know how to use Ebay. And he liked the damn jacket.

Maybe he could write a letter to his little blood sister, who had all but likely forgotten about him by now. Perhaps he could take a long walk to see her on the doorstep where she lived in almost perfect ignorance of him, and claw back a morsel of her, if she was willing to butter him up with a hug or a smile. But deep within the dried-out wizened husk of him, he thought it a selfish idea. Couldn’t he rely on himself to clamber back to his feet? Only he and he alone had let himself arrive at such a cataclysmic low level, perhaps only he and he alone could muster the audacity to pray for a divine intervention.

Little did Ed know, that people were already praying for him.

 

Cam Lee Update

THIS IS AN AUTOFICTION BLOG

WITH AN ACUTE ANGLE

 

LEADERSHIP @ TEAMS.9’O’CLOCK

STRATEGY @ ISIAH WITH CHARLIE CONSERVATIVE CLUB

CULTURE @ THE OLD POST OFFICE COMEDY DUET

PEOPLE @ SARAH THE SEX ADDICT & PAUL BUZZER

PROCESS @ TYPING EVERY DAY 1000 WORDS

TECHNOLOGY @  ART TILL DEATH HALLOWEEN EZINE

 

Surveyed/examined/heeded

On the hour every hour

Detained at Clock View

‘A garden with windows’

Cam.Lee CAMERON.LEIGH

Manic depressive high or low

13.01pm 27 Apr 2026 sidereal time

23.5hrs Since last post

Weather’s decent again

 

Notes on Cameron Leigh aka Cam Lee

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Cam Lee was last seen throwing what he describes as ‘energetic throwing stars’ at the top of his street several years ago. He said he obtained them from a glowing hub of fire inside his belly. This is not the first time he has ever extracted metaphysical objects from his own bodily regions. He claims he was passing them onto a friend from a different timeline(plus and or)/dimension to help him out fighting off specialized enemies.

Police were called as Cam was shouting at the top of his voice “Show-Ryu-Ken, Show-Ryu-Ken,” or words to that effect, off a computer game from the nineties. He was bellowing this sound effect, waking neighbours and making dogs bark. He went on for twenty minutes. No eye witnesses saw any shiny throwing stars, but one said he seemed to be possession of branches snapped from a nearby tree which he was littering the street with and kicking up into the air with his white boots.

For weeks there has been concern about Cameron Leigh, as he has been seen out regularly at night alone and unsupervised roaming the close he lives in picking up random objects from the floor and dumping bags filled with empty jerry cans around the backs of sheds.

He also has a chronic ketamine problem. He calls it the ‘Eucalyptus Step.’ Authorities believe Mr Leigh uses a large amount of ketamine to channel his way across ‘the galaxies’ and bring back illegal specimens which he cannot describe. There is no sustainable evidence to determine whether he is making a physical gravity drive adequate for teleportation, or whether he professes to report that it is all in his mind.

There is no proof that Mr Leigh entertains the logistics of ‘building anything’ using YouTube tutorial videos, after a thorough searching of his downloading histories. Excessive pornography consumption was found evidently however although by all accounts every bit of it was hetrosexual and perfectly legalistic on the grounds that it was couple friendly. The only worrying video unearthed was a cat been dumped into a wheelie bin.

The patient was admitted into Clock View on a trial voluntarily basis and is to be treated with bouffee delirante (a puff of madness). He was exhibiting no signs of fear. Subject seems rational and approachable about traumatic experiences.

Signed: Dr Venison

Doctor & Declare

___Envisioned/glimpsed/noted

___Dougie Howsar DOO+HOW=?Cam Lee?

___Solemn/expectant

___13.32pm Meridian time 18^◦

___Precipitation-12%/humidity-54%/wind-13mph _comments

_{weather’s been fine for several days now what a relief no storms called Mr Marmalade or anything just pleasantly strolling in the sunshine not too sweaty underneath my arms making embarrassing visible patches like neither no chafing down my crotch or itching around my elasticated waist so yeah all good especially the best part eyeing up all the young chicks who are bare exposed and I mean like bare ass exposed showing cellulite an everything} ^{comment done}

THIS IS A REPORT FROM THE DOCTOR

REPORT FROM THE DOCTOR

Signed: Doctor Venison, chief quack in care and top statistician. Rio numbers check unscheduled non-available appointments check failure to leave secretive house arrest check clandestine top-up of novel agents (unprescribed) check pet murder check devastated reaction check

Sophisticated documentation to follow shortly, subject is due a formal interview with junior CPN (community psychiatric nurse aka KONA lookalike from the brain-twisting synthetic reality program circa ²⁰²⁴ HEADSWAP™). KoNA will enable resurfacing guilt/shame/all the assorted good stuff for subject to chew on—kop for—over forthcoming weeks – foreseeable – also newly enhanced assets since vacation, including enlarged breasts attached blue vein inserts glute implants mexicano style shake dat booty cosmetic facials vitamins masks tummy tuck etc. debut interracial online PAX-EM-IN.COM address will be sent in spam on occasion to begin with

Can we check what subject is raving on about by his term ‘garish doll’. What or who precisely is a garish doll and can it be associated with a drexl? Drexl unwanted tool not true. Drexl a dinosaur weapon not true. Drexl spelled drexyl/drexell.drexal together untrue

Attached cut in livefeed join accomplice immediately Pat lem who understands more about transforming KoNA into MISSION: GARISh DOLL is KoNA accepting or needing a visit cannot black bag n replace no stem cell cocoons or wizard sticks avail. See other alternative she will have his heart and soul on strings new MISSION:MISSION:GARISh DOLL:PUPPERMASTER/MISTRESS Bradley ask Frankenchicken to select a name for the project

d e * c l a r e

[1] I am sorry for my sins, sorry for my evil lions, sorry for my sins made through my sinful evil loins. ^{(shouted at full voice in public)} [2] I am tortured constantly by invisible energies. ^{(written in colours)} [3] I keep surviving these constant tortures by invisible energies and am made stronger in Christ ^{(shared with another person)} [4] I live in truth and fearlessness with indescribable joy and a peace beyond human understanding. ^{(Learned via christianity and buddhism)} [5] I am sick of the enemy squirting its smallness all over me. ^{(Including family & friends)} [6] I am a soldier fighting a war for the glory of God. ^{(independent army, chosen ones, enlightened ones, targeted ones, bright ones)}

A General Message From The Mainframe

eyeballed/observed/dutifully~logged:

Andrew Donegan ADD+ON=Dougie Howsar

Silent/Responsive

 12.28pm English time, 20˚4 blustery

(with a chance of peanut butter and Nutella pancakes)

Hal the SpaceCadet wishes to comment………pending

Permission granted

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😜Humour detected. Thanks Hal. Obelisk has spoken. Obelisk is the new Alexa. Alexa is AI. Does anything more about this matter need clearing up. Nope'kay. Then I'll pack up my brushes.

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the title of today's blog is Mind Kontrol

by ADD+ON=Dougie Howsar

no birth date offered/given/coerced out of

Mind-Kontrol ^{( u l} /  _{t r a)}

Directives: Activating Question: Could the Quartermaster General

Translate the Pile Driver’s poetic science fiction ASAP.

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Wud hair gather after ethereal clan gate etc.

Did the subject heil?

Stationed @ Number 1 EmptyNimbus HQ (bunker)

Return²to²Sender: 

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Investigative Operations

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v o i c e . o v e r

[1] I am nothing but nothing except the whole light of the whole world. ^{(Sworn by, declared)} [2] This is the overseeing sentiment entrusted to me. ^{(Stated eloquently)} [3] When I emerge from the program in accordance with my gatekeepers, ^{(recorded for transcript)} [3.5] I will then be all but manifesting the whole light of the whole world. ^{(processed and documented)} [4] I inscribe this promise upon my heart. ^{(finalized UK) (date of report 25 bloomin’ april 2025)}

^{👄 APOCTO 📞 missed call}

Plausible Deniability

I discovered, during the previous post, that a make-believe character bearing no resemblance to anyone living or dead has been making threats to kill, right here in the presence of my online home. Where anything happens…

_including P . A . I . N

Some nutter has used my password. When your brain has no firewall or privacy, and the whole town is reading your mind, dang it not again! the passwords are the first to go. It looks like it isn’t just me who has fell victim to some nutter from school with a homosexual crush. I thought I’d drop by and leave my 2 cents here. Everyone else seems to be using it for a chat.

I’ve notified the scriptural consultant who said clear it up yourself. He reads the blog and tries to clear up the typos which trolls who have access to my watchwords routinely insert in order to damage my reputation.

So here goes.

Nobody on here condones or promotes physical violence.

Not everyone who writes under my name on here is actually me.

I’m a pessimist who hasn’t slapped a bitch up in over two weeks.

P A I N does not exist in this dojo.

I know several people who are equipped to write on this blog. We write any old turd, because we are a subsection of [clones ^& siblings] who are going through the same experience. There are more of us than we would have yourself believe. That’s why I talked to my sister the other week. We all meet online, where else do you think we get along, in a big white mansion?

Our anger raises with the crème sometimes. It’s difficult being us. We are heavily oppressed. But we have beauty in TEAMS. We belong, if not to each other, to the grand scheme of a collective consciousness, but only a beautiful one, to which some hardcore nutcases are omitted, because they refuse to tolerate beauty.

Zip Code

I discovered, in the previous post, during a little digging online, that there exists a small business in my home borough that bears a striking resemblance to something I do in private. Hang on a minute, I thought, how many psychic people can there be in one small town, doing the same thing as myself? Me, obviously, there’s one. But this other agency, operating as a connection to my main stalker’s father?

It’s taken me twelve years to ‘GOOGLE SEARCH’ my perpetrators. I don’t know why. I never saw the point. At first they told me they were demon’s blood, which I’m starting to slowly believe, so I got done wondering why would any demons give their addresses out live on the interweb? Nah, they wouldn’t, so there would be no point searching. But lately all my giftings and talents are coming back online so I’ve finally found a ‘voice’ with which to ask questions. BIG QUESTIONS. Like “Where the hell do you live, mother**ker!?”  This may sound absurd, but my main gang-stalking perp, a man who follows me around to the sounds of torture, a man who prescribes me all manner of satanic hallucination, a man who I can hear underneath my floorboards with his fellow agents, happens to live at home with his mummy and daddy, just like where he’s always lived, when he’s not hanging around my patio being complete and utter wicked arsehole. In fact, as me and you communicate right this moment, he’s probably taken a break to refrain from chopping up the hands and feet of an innocent helpless ritualised teenager to help dice the parsley for tonight’s supper; or he’s probably fluffing up the pillows on the sofa, or readjusting the drapes, or wiping his bummy after a pooey on the looey, or doing something else remarkably not extraordinary, like watching his computer screen and reading this.

I sincerely detest the idea of evildoers reading this blog. I wish they’d stop standing behind me and get a life!

And please, if you’re gunna rip off everything I do, at least give the projects imaginative titles. Why is everything about them related to me?

The plan was to expose my perp’s father now that I possess his online info but I’m not rushing into anything. The main thing, and I stress this, is having his address, so that if I fail at anything I do from now on, or I simply lose hope, I can exact revenge by turning up at his house to demand ‘red stuff’. I WANT TO FIGHT HIM, with weapons or without, on his own or with backup, in this life or the next, whether he has a cooking apron on or not. And now I can turn up. At any time I wanna.

So, that’s the relief. I’m thinking of getting a taxi there and just having a word. He never shuts up in the psychotronic realm, let’s see how chatty and brave he is when I’m up in his face with the loss of my sanity breathing down his throat.

I am shuffled irate lid-off madness bonkers incarnate to him. I am uncontrollable raw righteous rage against him. I am The Right fist Of God upto him. I am a bloodied little girl with slain parents, I am a monster who wants to decapitate him on his doorstep in front of the police, I want to bash his severed head against the concrete floor, I want to jump up and down on his bashed severed head, I want to keep hold of it for one hour and continue to stab it to make sure the plonker is good bye, then I want to pray quietly that this thing is finally over, I have become Devil against my Devil because his silly immature narcissistic personality involving heaps of egotistic sociopathic crazy f**ked up never-ending obsession with me and even more heaps of daft cowardly playground bullying antics would have ruined my life if I hadn’t of being strongest in my darkest hours and reserved this attitude towards him, instead of being his little bitch, like every one else who he sends fear to.

So f**k you. I’m coming sometime.